Inspiration..

For as long as I can remember, I have had an ongoing battle with my weight. I have always thought I was fat, even when I was just average size. I have always been self conscious about what other people have thought about me.

Well that ends NOW- with this post.

A few days ago, I started a plan to lose the baby weight with a group of moms I met online. We all found each other through a website because we were all due in December. It's funny how I can be so close to a group of women I have never even met. They make me laugh, answer my questions, calm my fears about my children, and listen to me vent about everything else. We all decided to lose the baby weight together. We took Before pictures, posted our weight (even though it was embarrassing), share meal ideas, and are pretty much keeping each other in check.
I'm very excited about this... I feel that with this much support, I can do it. I can get healthy. I have a good chunk of weight to lose, but I think what is going to help me is to set mini goals. That way, I don't get overwhelmed.

My first mini goal is to lose 10 lbs by the end of April.
I will post more goals as I go along...

I found a quote yesterday that really made me think. I'm going to use it as my inspiration to lose the weight, and for anything else I want to change.

"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else."


This really got to me. I've always said "I want to look like that." or "I want to be more like that person"... But reading this made me really think. Do I really want to be and look like someone else?
The answer is NO.
I want to be me. There is always room for improvement, but I want to be the best possible person that I can be.
I will never be a size 1, 5'10, and look like a model. That's just not the way I am built. But I can change my eating and exercise habits so that I can be the healthiest and most fit that I can be. I want to be comfortable in my own skin.
I want to be the best mother and fiancée I can be. I'm going to work on being more patient, understanding, and not hold onto the small stuff.

This quote is now the background on my phone to remind me every time I see it that all I can do is try to be the best person I can be. I will never be perfect. But I'll always be me.